I nearly scratched this topic off of my list of doable resources for peace and sanity. In fact, I scribbled it out, and then rewrote it, on my list of post topics – I knew I had to write about it. Even if it can’t be dubbed easy, it is doable. And it is important. [At this point, I’m wishing for an easier row to hoe – a funnier and more light-hearted calling. You know, the whole “Make ’em laugh” thing.]
Oh well, since that isn’t going to happen, here goes…
So often, my struggle to accomplish what I know is my responsibility nearly drives me insane. I feel like I’m shoveling sand against the tide – trying to move a mountain with a teaspoon.
Can you relate?
I’ve even been known to stand in the bathroom and give myself a stern talking to. “Pull yourself together, for cryin’ out loud! What is your problem?” And sometimes, my get-up-and-go just gets up and leaves. Adios. So completely out of here.
In all honesty, when I sift down through my issues, it’s not that I’m tired, crabby, hormonal, or even overwhelmed. Most of the time, my “why?” and “how?” are not matching. My tires have sunk down, and I’m just spitting dirt. Going nowhere. (Generally speaking I’ve let myself fall off the wagon – I’ve lost my routine, blown my budget, let dust accumulate on my Bible, and let my eyes wander to my inadequacies. What I truly need to do is hit the restart button. That’s my next post topic, by the way.)